When I was younger I thought I would be married with multiple kids by the time I was 30. Life doesn't work out exactly the way you planned it when you were 10 (thank God). I honestly don't know when or if I'll have kids. Certainly not now when I'm wondering if I'm on the right career path. There's also the whole enjoying my social life and not feeling financially secure enough to have a child. I can barely cover my cat's medical expenses and still have debt I'm trying to pay off. I know it's not the right time.
I met up with my cousin for dinner and drinks last night and she mentioned that she's questioning if her job is the right job for her and what she should do. Go back to hair dressing? Nursing school? (She works at a hospital now but not as a nurse). I told her I felt the same way. I don't see law school in my future. I'm too much of a sensitive person, at least to practice family law. I have this feeling that there's something else I should be doing.
I'm always one to trust my gut. If only my gut could send a detailed message to my brain with the specifics.
I know I'm not alone though. I feel like quite a few people in my life are experiencing the same feelings and it's helpful to just talk about it. Despite not knowing what I should do I believe at some point it will become clear. Life takes twists and turns that we don't necessarily expect and that keeps things interesting for sure. I'm still learning what will make me happy and how to make that happen and if I work towards that I have faith that it will all work out in the end
And hey if you're feeling this way too, it's ok. We're in this together. We'll figure it out.
It's time to make a start
To get to know your heart
Time to show your face, time to take your place
In every speck of dust
In every universe,
When you feel most alone, you will not be alone