On learning to not worry about your weight

I recently realized that I don't worry about my weight anymore, or at least not in the same way I did in my 20s.

I used to think I was fat pretty much all the time. Looking back on photos from that time I realize that I was crazy to think that. I wasn’t fat, my self-esteem is just a big giant jerk.

I do weigh more than I did in my early 20s but I no longer think I’m fat. I’ve lost 10lbs since December and it’s all been through exercise. Trust me I was shocked because it was a loooong and cold winter. My motivation to start exercising again was my high cholesterol. I don’t think I look very different after losing 10lbs but I feel better about myself for exercising more.

I am trying to eat healthier but that’s harder for me than exercising. I love food. I mean I really LOVE food.

Look how happy I was to find Peanut lovers Chex Mix in St. Thomas.

I can't find it in Massachusetts. I need to order a crate full online.

My other weakness is french fries. I did make it a full 30 days without potato products one time and it was the longest 30 days of my life. I do try to limit my french fry consumption but if I completely avoid french fries I am a miserable human. I would not shut up about french fries

I’m not saying that I just don’t care and I’m going to go hog wild and end up on My 600lb Life. What I’m saying is that I’ve finally learned to accept my body and focus on staying active and attempting to eat healthier and not on those “last” 10lbs. Avoiding a food I love completely is a recipe for disaster and exercising makes me feel good.

Who has time to worry about their weight all the time? I don't. I have things to do and Chex Mix to eat.